HAPPY NEW YEAR, or is it?

Its that time of the year, where u make ur new year resolutions and u probably break them today only, or you just try contemplating on wat u did wrong the previous year and apparently you shall make the same mistakes again.

would u say its the beginning of the year or the year when u stumble upon a new beginning? stumbe, for everything is unplanned, even pregnancies. but life has no i-pills, all you can ultimately do is cry in the middle of the nite, the pillow your only support, the insomnia your drug, the sleepless nite puts you to sleep.

wats the new year got to do with it?
nothing actually. just a few tit bits that made my happy new year a little less sad, a lot more happy and way unexpected joys that didnt really make my day. i know very wierd, but LIFES LIKE DAT!

a fone network... jammed at 12.. when i frantically typed the cutest msg i cud, and overly unromantic boyfriend.was sick.i dont blame him now for the lame-ness. but it does hurt when u have great expectations and u hafto let em go in that sinking sand. i managed. sad.depressed.hurt. im stuck at the crossroads in chumbawanba.i think.

ex chats in the evening. i try to be nice. and he trys to be NICE TOO! its was very ironically the hapiest moment in the day coming from some one i hurt the most. when i thot in the morning how lonely i felt waking up to no one by your side, at least in perception. and he makes me happy. but how can i revel in that glory when i promised another man? another entangled fuck up. unhappy again.

the new year is just another boring day in the life of an 18 something. she has no goal.to many dilemnas. frequent mood swings.(due to).boyfriend issues.stressors.knocked out by parntal advisory board. and extremely low on self appraisal. in simple terms: MESSED UP

BUT THERE IS A GOD. I KNOW.

i asked him wat was the best thing last year, and he said "YOU". i asked him again, and wats the best thing this year, and he said "baby its YOU"

:) post dedicated to ROHAN . who brightened my day at the very end. IM JUST SO HAPPY NOW!!!